Out of my Diary #1

One day you will meet a girl who will talk about the world as if she has lived a thousand lives and she  will see things in such a different perspective that you’ll question everything you know. She’ll describe things in words you’ve never heard but they sound so beautiful coming out of her mouth that you’ll look them up and start using then yourself. She will be curious and will have wonder of a child and the phrase ‘curiosity killed the cat’ will take on a new meaning for you. When people tell her things she doesn’t want to hear and it makes her heart break in half so you end up holding her and picking up the pieces. She’ll bring out a passion in you that no one knew you ever had and she’ll make you feel something you never felt. She’ll hide her face when you see her with her hair up and no make up and your voice will catch in your throat because she looks like the most beautiful woman in the world. She’ll act a little crazy and ignite a fire in your bones that burns so bad it makes you want to run for your life.

DON’T.

Don’t you fucking dare. Stare at her even if she’s so bright it burns. Hold her close even though you’re terrified that even if you touch her the wrong way she will break. Kiss her so hard that you see stars, trace the scars that litter on her body, do not her her be ashamed. She makes you feel vulnerable and that scars the living hell out of you and since you’re not used to being out of control, let the new experience teach you lessons. It won’t make you a hero if you leave because you think you’ll break her. You are doing her no favours by killing something that hasn’t even been born yet.

So don’t run. 

Don’t run away from what scares you because you have the potential of being so much more that a coward who breaks her heart.. a man who made her fall for himself but wasn’t there to catch her when she fell.

Love her for as long as the universe allows because if you don’t, I swear you’ll regret it.