Kehna toh main bahut kuch chahti hun par ab aap theek insaan hai nahi batane ke liye

As you can see I’ve removed everything I ever wrote about us, and my love for you, and little trinkets that I shared, the space that was strictly for you and me but yeh kabhi nahi hataongi Nikhil.

Aapse Mohobbat karti hun aur shayad uss nikhil se humesha karti rahongi, par raaton mein, jo mere dil se aah nikalte hai, jab im holding my stomach and curled to deal with the pain, Usko chah kar bhi nhi rok pa rhe hun.

Mujhe kabhi mat nazar aana Nikhil. 

Jis insaan ka haath, chehra main niharte hue nahi thakti thi, jiske baatein mere zehen mein carved thi, jiski muskurahat ke liye Maine kya nhi kiya chahe khud mere andar tukde ho rhe the.. mere saath, mere ehsaas-ae-nafs, self respect, pyaar, waqt, care aur na jaane kya kya ki taraf aapne jo behas hoke act kiya hai woh main chah kar bhi kabhi nhi bhula paongi.. never again.

Ek baat ka credit dungi Aapko, aapne Mujhe yeh baat ka ehsaas dila diya hai ki main kaafi strong insaan hun aur bahut layak, par kaash aap ek aise insaan hote jiske saath Mujhe strong banne ke zaroorat na hoti.

Aap par jo guzri na woh aapke saath main bhi janti hun kyunki aapke saath thi.. Aapka saath nhi choda jab tak aapne khud se alag nhi kiya lekin mujhpe jo guzri na Nikhil woh sirf main janti hun, aur Bhagwan kisse aur ko yeh kabhi na mehsoos karayein 

Thoda self reflect karo.. you need it.. doosre mein khot nikalne se pehle khud ke actions Dekho.. dosre ki galti ka wait mat karo to tell your kaand, but yeh karne ke liye pehle khud accept karna padega ki Aapke haathon kya Kya hua hai.. sab cheezein yahi barabar hoti hai Nikhil.. 

I paid for what hurt I caused you and my parents.. meri izzat, meri mental health, physical health, my dreams, my motherhood, I paid for it because of my actions, aur agar aap isse guzar rhe hain na toh woh aapke apne karm hai.. Dekho unhe.

Aur yeh jo jhooti Shaan hai na Aapki.. yaad hai kya kaha tha Mujhe? ‘Aise buri din aa gayi hai ki tum Mujhe sikha rahi ho’.. Haan mujhse hi seekhoge Nikhil kyunki tum mein meri jitni himmat nhi hai.. main nanga hona nhi chahti thi.. Socha tha ki aap mere Muhafiz ho, protector ho, parda rakhoge mera, lekin tumnein har jagah mere kapde faade, tumnein Mujhe nanga kar Diya aur ab Mujhe kisse ke baap ki parwa nhi. 

Nikhil main aapki shakal nhi dekhna chahti kabhi bhi. 

Iss waqt se aap mere liye marr chuke hai.. woh zubaan jise main aapko apne umr deti thi usse se bol rhe hun.

Avoid me like the plague. 

Tell your friends and family too.