Out of my Diary #1

Dear Tanvi 2016-2023,

Today, I find myself lost in contemplation and introspection, how I wish I could turn back the hands of time and alter the course of my life! If only I could change the choices I made regarding the people I fell for, the actions I took, the company I kept, and the influences I allowed into my world but, time travel remains a whimsical fantasy, and I am left to grapple with the consequences of my past.

Silent battles are the loneliest, aren't they? I have chosen to keep my anguish hidden, for fear of judgment and the lack of a safe space to share my truth, because god knows I how much I wish I had it. In my silence, I pay the price of isolation which is a heavy price to bear, and the ache within my soul grows with each passing day.

Yet, here I am, writing this blog to you, my dear diary. Through these words, I find solace in the release of pent-up emotions, giving voice to the pain that resides within my heart. It is an act of courage, for only by acknowledging my struggles can I begin to heal.

In this moment of vulnerability, I want to remind myself of the strength that resides within me. Despite the darkness that has befallen my path, I have persevered. I have faced unimaginable challenges, and I am still standing. If I have come this far, then I am capable of enduring and overcoming whatever lies ahead.

So, dear self, I implore you to be strong. Embrace the flickering flame of resilience that burns within your spirit. Fight for yourself, for your healing, and for the future you deserve. The road may be arduous, but you have already proven that you possess the tenacity to overcome even the darkest of nights.

Remember, dear self, that your worth is not defined by the pain inflicted upon you. You are not to blame for the actions of others. Your journey towards healing begins with self-compassion and forgiveness. Reach out to those who can offer support and understanding, for there are people who genuinely care and want to help you navigate the storm.

As I conclude this heartfelt entry, I want to remind myself—and anyone who may stumble upon these words—that life is a tapestry woven with both joy and sorrow. While I cannot rewrite my past, I can shape my present and future. I will not allow the shadows of my past to define me, for I am stronger than the pain I have endured.

So, dear self, take my hand and let us embark on this journey of healing together. Let us find the courage to share our story and break free from the chains of silence. Remember, you are not alone, and your voice deserves to be heard.

With unwavering hope and resilience